Advocate Lutheran General, Park Ridge, Illinois, United States (Fall 2012)
Poet’s statement: Poetry writing has been a coping skill for me since I was a child. The inspiration for this poem is a recent miscarriage.
|Mother’s Day is different this year
Early morning lump in my throat
Tender breasts as I shift in my sleep
Such weird sensations,
could it be?As I hurried to a class,
I stopped for a test…
Blank stare at the crisscross,
could I? will he? is it? should we?
Who can I tell first?Insatiable cravings,
Insomnia.Lists, books, plans, websites
Protective strategies, thoughts on godparents,
parenting styles, names, and family vacations.
Dreams of schools and career paths.
Sensing the hugs, kisses, and more hugs.
Our love has created something delightful,
smile.Off to meet our baby,
Giddy, anxious and happy.
There was no heartbeat this time.
What does that mean?
Personal devastation, unbearable ache.
Photography by Chris Martino
DIANA HEIMAN, RN, CEN, TNS, has been a RN for nine years and is currently at Lutheran General emergency room in Park Ridge, Illinois. She is also a student in the Family Nurse Practitioner program at Loyola University in Chicago and is expected to graduate in December 2012.Follow Hektoen International via social media to see more featured content.